Just in case back...

This is for ‘This is me’ and to anybody else wondering where I am or for that matter not caring any more:

You don't ever need to explain because I understand better than you think! I won’t try and explain because lets face it what comes out of my mouth at the moment means little to nothing. This is a war and often I’m not fighting the battle as I should, I know. I try and rationalize this all that to myself but I find it difficult for a brain that should know better. One thing you can never be accused of was not trying, infact you should be honoured for how long you did try.

Anyway, I thought I’d reply to let you know I am still reading and for what it is worth I am still alive. I find myself hovering between caring if I live or die and actually doing something to live a normal life again and I regret most of all my family and friends suffering while I do so.

You deserve some sanity again and I hope that one day the real friend you remember can enjoy it with you!