Day 193 - "Free to be Me!"
One of my friends invited me to go away for the weekend at the end of the month – to
At the moment I still have to ask my parents if I as much as want to go to the shop around the corner, so I figured that going away to Cape Town for a weekend would most certainly warrant some mention and would probably raise concerns. I was really surprised that all my worry about asking them was really needless in the end when they agreed without argument.
The plane tickets have been bought, the car has been rented, so I guess it is really official. There is no turning back now. I can’t wait to see
I want to live a normal life again, perhaps live a normal life for the very first time in my life. I want to be free… free from longing, wanting or taking drugs. And this trip marks a lot of that for me. It is not so much about me actually going – it is about being trusted enough to let me go, to be liked enough for me to be invited and to feel comfortable enough inside to actually do it!
Have a great trip. It's so great when the travelphobia lifts, and one of the very biggest benefits of sobriety--especially when everyone likes you so much more this way and you find yourself completely capable of not getting into arguments!